One of those days..

This weekend should have been one of the best weekends ever. But I would be lying if I admitted that..
I feel like quitting, and giving up.
I try my hardest, I'm so tolerant, I'm too nice.
How can you be liked by everyone, and not accepted because one doesn't..
If only they knew, if only..
(On the way from the park today, which was moderately satisfactory, me and Jayselle were talking. About things here and there, and how I was feeling displeased and disheartened..)
All I can do is smile politely, and avoid hostility.
..
(I almost cried today.. right there in the park.)
Jayselle told me not to give up though.. it'll work out right? (Oh fuck me if I'm not spelling his name correctly.)
..
I need help.
Can anyone help me?
Maybe I should just be like myself, and fight. Be "in-your-face"..

(I hope no one makes stupid fucking comments. I hope anyone that does makes a worthy and "unquestionable" one, where they show consideration and not just questions. Like "What's wrong?" and some stupid bullshit because lords know I want to talk about it..)

I told my parents I lost my wallet today because if I told them before I couldn't take Nina and Darryl out.. I "virtually" lied to them. But that's the way it is..

Rebellion.

Rebellion?

I'm not going to jeopardize anyone's goals, anyone's future..
I try my best to be respectf-
(I'm going to stop writing now..

..because maybe I'm just having one of those days..)