A New Chapter
It's been a long time (once again) since I have updated. Since my last one, I have entered summer vacation, graduated, and looked for work. I have a resume and everything now.
Graduation wasn't all I thought it was "cracked up" to be. It seems the only thing I can say about it is "Hey guess what? I graduated.. now ask me if I care." I'm glad I did but, I don't really feel te enormous loss of not going back and all. (In fact, I hated walking around in those hallways, not making eye contact, and being approached by people I didn't really want to talk to and felt obligated to engage in "forced conversation".. but it was cool.) I find "comfort in discomfort" anyway.. To sum up graduation, I sat down on stage where no one could see me.. The climax of it all? I got up, walked, walked, walked up to the principal who has a "Tony the Tiger" complex, took a quick picture shortly after my hat "cap" fell, then sat back down. And to end the ceremony, I threw my cap somewhere and lost it. (I wanted to keep the tassle too, but fuck it I guess.) " No sense in living in the past." (Something pretty screwy that I tell myself to feel better.) And that was graduation. I took lots of pictures, but not as many as I wanted..
Well. It's been four days since I have graduated, and I haven't showered since. I think I'll get to that tomorrow, I just haven't had the time. The only things I've done so far are the usual going out with Darryl and Christina, and this once in a blue moon bowling with Jessica and Health. (Wanted to get to talking with Jeysel more.. it's aways a good conversation with him.) Anyway, I've been sending out my resume everywhere, (which looks pretty impressive to your average garden variety idiot who knows nothing about computers.) It hasn't been a week yet.
I haven't really been talking much to my old friends (I'm referring to my friends from high school whom I never had the notion to speak with outside of school.) Andres got a new car, an RSX, Cris is still alive, (..amazingly. It's a shame he didn't graduate with us,) Ryun is still Ryun, and a whole mess of others I have no idea about. Manuel's going to the airforce, (I don't really care, he's a sellout anyway..) and his brother moved to Pembroke Pines. Alex, hmm.. I wouldn't mind getting into contact with him again. Darryl.. I'm worried about. (I'm very worried about him. I can't really put my finger on why. I spoke with him once regarding the "trio", or me, Nina, and himself. And he wasn't very optomistic about it.) Christina is on a cruise right now! Ugh! Well I hope she has fun over there. I wanted to see Amanda again. Haven't spoken to her in so long.
And then there are all the little freshmen and sophomore people I used to know but don't really care about. "Talkin' bout", "I'm going to miss you", and "Don't leave!", "Keep in touch". I don't really give a shit about them anyway. I've already come to terms with "The world is a big place, stop living in your little world." Because to them, High School is all they have. To them, if they didn't have friends, if they didn't have some new thing to conform to they would all be in chaos. Suicide. (Something I learned a long time ago.. around middles school..)
(Wow this entry is getting pretty long. Oh how much I love this laptop. I'm typing this right now in my dining room while my mother is watching her novela "La Mujer en el Espejo".)
Oh well..
(..I need a new guitar.)
Graduation wasn't all I thought it was "cracked up" to be. It seems the only thing I can say about it is "Hey guess what? I graduated.. now ask me if I care." I'm glad I did but, I don't really feel te enormous loss of not going back and all. (In fact, I hated walking around in those hallways, not making eye contact, and being approached by people I didn't really want to talk to and felt obligated to engage in "forced conversation".. but it was cool.) I find "comfort in discomfort" anyway.. To sum up graduation, I sat down on stage where no one could see me.. The climax of it all? I got up, walked, walked, walked up to the principal who has a "Tony the Tiger" complex, took a quick picture shortly after my hat "cap" fell, then sat back down. And to end the ceremony, I threw my cap somewhere and lost it. (I wanted to keep the tassle too, but fuck it I guess.) " No sense in living in the past." (Something pretty screwy that I tell myself to feel better.) And that was graduation. I took lots of pictures, but not as many as I wanted..
Well. It's been four days since I have graduated, and I haven't showered since. I think I'll get to that tomorrow, I just haven't had the time. The only things I've done so far are the usual going out with Darryl and Christina, and this once in a blue moon bowling with Jessica and Health. (Wanted to get to talking with Jeysel more.. it's aways a good conversation with him.) Anyway, I've been sending out my resume everywhere, (which looks pretty impressive to your average garden variety idiot who knows nothing about computers.) It hasn't been a week yet.
I haven't really been talking much to my old friends (I'm referring to my friends from high school whom I never had the notion to speak with outside of school.) Andres got a new car, an RSX, Cris is still alive, (..amazingly. It's a shame he didn't graduate with us,) Ryun is still Ryun, and a whole mess of others I have no idea about. Manuel's going to the airforce, (I don't really care, he's a sellout anyway..) and his brother moved to Pembroke Pines. Alex, hmm.. I wouldn't mind getting into contact with him again. Darryl.. I'm worried about. (I'm very worried about him. I can't really put my finger on why. I spoke with him once regarding the "trio", or me, Nina, and himself. And he wasn't very optomistic about it.) Christina is on a cruise right now! Ugh! Well I hope she has fun over there. I wanted to see Amanda again. Haven't spoken to her in so long.
And then there are all the little freshmen and sophomore people I used to know but don't really care about. "Talkin' bout", "I'm going to miss you", and "Don't leave!", "Keep in touch". I don't really give a shit about them anyway. I've already come to terms with "The world is a big place, stop living in your little world." Because to them, High School is all they have. To them, if they didn't have friends, if they didn't have some new thing to conform to they would all be in chaos. Suicide. (Something I learned a long time ago.. around middles school..)
(Wow this entry is getting pretty long. Oh how much I love this laptop. I'm typing this right now in my dining room while my mother is watching her novela "La Mujer en el Espejo".)
Oh well..
(..I need a new guitar.)
posted by Darzee at 8:25 PM
2 Comments:
Wow, shris is alive, who would've know. lol. I agree with u about high school i hated the place although like i said it is kind of weird now that im out. I didnt know u read my blogs.
sorry it's Chris*
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