"I Agree with the Second Part."

Why am I so irritable right now?

This is not stress. Nothing stresses me.

I'm having a wonderful time in college. Everything is easy. But when I get home it's a different story. Why am I so stressed? I need to leave.

Before it used to be that nothing could make me angry, or nothing could just "exhaust" me. FIghts are increasing, yelling is doubling, noise doesn't stop. I need peace. I want to rest in peace. I don't like all this "cussing", all this "need to make another feel worse"/insulting.

I want a piece of mind. I know why certain people do what they do, and it's to get away. Why does a certain person get so many jobs? Why do some people work all day? Why do some choose a life of drugs, and of prostitution.. it's a disorder in people's minds telling them they need to get away for closure. It's a false feeling of "euphoric decision making". "I did this". "I did that".

I want to move out.

I want to fuck up my life and see things through the opposite end of the spectrum, afterall I've only been halfway right? I want to know what it's like to have your fingers cut off because you owe a loan shark money.. how it feels to sell your child for food, and the regret you much time later. How it feels to have your best friend dead, and having assisted them in doing so..

Sounds horrible.

Is it?

I'm talking in epithets that abuse reality and most who posses a mental stability of "the norm" may find it disturbing.. but in actuality, nothing is disturbing. Everything is normal.

This is the world we live in today..

I read somewhere about how the "crime rate" in the nation around the 1990's was in so much turmoil that economists believed that America would be much more dangerous and we would soon live in chaos. The murder rate was on the rise.. It was even said that children would begin shootouts, teenagers would kill each other, and we would have the number one murder rate on the planet.

Years later, today, crime has significantly lowered and all the "prophecies" have been proven wrong. In fact the crime rate had dropped about 200 percent since 1992 to 2005, (around that number I believe).

What did they all say? Well all those same experts in our economy said the reason for this was more police enforcement, and gun laws were enforced. This is the reason why the crime rate had dropped!

Silly them right?

The real truth is because of a woman by the name of Norma McCorvey, under the pseudonym Jane Roe, (Roe v. Wade). She had challenged the criminal abortion laws in Texas. She was pregnant and could not have her baby. Henry Wade was the attorney general who defended the anti-abortion law at the time.

The supreme court ruled in her favor, stating that government did not have the power to prohibit abortions. It disturbed the freedom of personal choice in family matters.

This case was decided in 1973. About 20 years before the "prophecies were told", and even then the crime rate was dropping. Studies do show that "unwanted children" are more likely to grow up as criminals than "wanted children" (excuse the crude labeling).

In reality, as the abundance in abortions grew, the national crime rate was dropping.

Norma McCorvey later "found god", and is now a "pro-life" supporter.

Ernest Hemingway once said,"The world is a fine place, and worth fighting for." And on July 2, 1961, Hemingway shot himself to death with a shotgun at his home in Idaho.

I need to get out of here. I'm not depressed (because that would be a stupid thing to do). I'm just filled with evil intentions and bad thoughts.

I need to get out of here.